Okay sorry in advanced that this is a really long post!! But that’s why I bolded things to make it easier on those who like to skim. 🙂
NEW PERSPECTIVE: I remember when I was pregnant with Levi. I was terrified to give birth; it was so new to me! When I would tell people I was nervous, they would say, “don’t worry, you’ll be a great mom!” And I was like, “uhhh I know. I’m scared about giving birth, not being a mom!!!” Hahhaha. So naïve. With Sunshine, I feel really relaxed, excited even, about giving birth since I know what it’s all about. As far as being a mother of two? Yeah, that’s a bit more uncharted territory! And who says you ever really know what being a mom is all about, anyway!? Now that I know how challenging (yet rewarding) being a mother is, I am going into the second child with a different mentality: Birth? Bring it. Countless sleepless night? Yikes! 😉
Haha. But all in all, this is such a tremendous experience & opportunity for my personal growth. I love everything I have learned so far from being a mother and look forward to conquering each new challenge that comes my way. And the newborn stage is kinda my favorite, so I am excited to hold a baby fresh from heaven once again!!! Such sweet moments.
HOW FAR ALONG: 25 weeks – approaching the end of my second trimester!
HER SIZE: Cauliflower, according to my Ovia Pregnancy app. Which also told me that my uterus is the size of a soccer ball & she weighs about 1.5 pounds!? Crazy.
NAME: Still baby girl Sunshine! Sunny for short. 🙂
WEIGHT GAIN: My weight fluctuates, but I started at around 128 lbs. and am now at 140 lbs. – so 12 lbs. so far! And I would probably be even heavier if it weren’t for the flu I got a couple weeks ago. I was throwing up & had explosive diarrhea for two days and lost a whole five pounds!! I don’t even know how that’s possible, haha.
CLOTHING PREFERENCES: I pretty much always dress for comfort. I bought this dress in three different patterns because I love it so much – and it’s SO flowy! I typically only wear v-necks, my jean shorts, sweat pants, and comfy dresses. I also purchased these Crocs flats that I wear everywhere. My feet hurt all the time when I don’t have shoes with support and I thought these looked a lot better than wearing my Hawaiin sandals to church. 😀 I’m no fashionista, but I just try to dress in away that supports my health and functionality!
SLEEP: I sleep very well now that I get ready for bed at 8/9pm instead of 10/11pm! I usually get 8.5 hours a night but feel my best when I get 9 hours.
BEST MOMENT THIS WEEK: Okay so I have three. One is whenever Levi greets me, he says “hi, momma!” in the sweetest voice I have ever heard. It melts my heart. Two, Levi grabbed my belly the other day and asked, “momma, where the ball go!?” HA!! And three, purchasing this belly band. It has been a lifesaver this week!!! I feel like a sumo wrestler when I wear it, so that’s a plus. 😉
DIET: My appetite is still in check but I am a lot healthier this pregnancy than I was with Levi! With my sensitive stomach, I can’t binge on any of my favorite treats like I used to or I’ll be in pain for hours on end. I usually just eat fancy chocolate from my stash every day that Joe has slowly supplied me with. I don’t really get cravings but I am picky… well, I’m picky when I’m not pregnant, too so this isn’t really a symptom!
BELLY BUTTON: Outie since around week 12!! This happened with Levi, too and I kind of love it.
WHAT I MISS: Being able to exercise (insert crying emoji). 🙁
LOOKING FORWARD TO: Seeing Levi become a big brother!! He is he cutest and I know he’ll take such good care of his baby sis.
SYMPTOMS: Shortness of breath, relentless pubic bone pain! (which I will touch on next), waddling like crazyyyy, & nesting x100 – I remodeled our bedroom as well as almost completely finished the nursery (lots of pics to come when my sis comes to town)!
PREPARATIONS: I have scheduled to get my placenta encapsulated (like I did with Levi), met with a birth photographer that I really love, and am meeting with a doula (birth coach) this week. Joe did so much for me during the labor of Levi and I feel like he was almost as tired as I was afterwards, since he held me and massaged me the whole time. This is partly why I am considering a doula, and also because almost everyone who has done a homebirth recommends it. I have been deep cleaning as much as possible while I still can and have transitioned Levi to his new room so that I could prepare the nursery for Sunny. I have also started meditating again to help me have a peaceful and spiritual labor.
Now for my CRAZY weekend battling Symphysis Pubis Dysfunction (SPD): I have felt pelvic pain during my whole pregnancy (especially after doing a hard workout or too much cleaning), and have been taking it easy since it has gotten worse (hence the pregnancy band). I used to attend hardcore gym classes but I have been doing the bicycle and yoga instead, ever since I started contracting and could hardly move after a class last month. In fact, I am so slow on the bike machine that it usually turns off multiple times within the 30 minutes I’m riding it! 😀 Sad days, but I’m adjusting. Anyways, I thought this pain was just something I had to deal with, but I had no idea how fragile my body really was until…
This Thursday evening: I wanted to win some Barefoot Blonde Hair extensions and there was a prize for the first person to get to Mountain View HS. I am good friends with the Fillerup family so I was also happy to support and see them! Anyways, I ran from my car to the gym (a total of 5-10 seconds, maybe?) and was the 4th person there. After talking with them for a bit, I hobbled to my car and then onto my living room couch. I told Joe all about it and we were cracking up – literally ROFLING! After watching Netflix for a couple of hours, I tried to get up to go to bed. MISTAKE. I just about died. It took Joe 30 minutes to literally drag me down the stairs (I have rug burns on my feet to prove it) and get me into bed. I couldn’t spread my legs or even lift them without the worst pain you could possibly imagine (WAY worse than labor pains!!). Once we got down the stairs, he laid me on a mat and pulled me on it to our room. And yes, we were STILL dying laughing. This was before I realized the severity and repercussions of my actions.
Long story short, I cried much of the night because I couldn’t even MOVE without Joe’s assistance. And anyone who has been pregnant knows how hard it is to stay in one position throughout the entire night. I also had to go to the bathroom but was so afraid of the pain that it would take to move that I just waited until Joe woke up the next morning. I did research almost the whole night and managed to get four hours of sleep. The conclusion I came to was that I have SPD, and the turnout looked pretty bleak. Many of the stories I read online were about women who couldn’t move for months. It typically goes away after you give birth, but some women have lifelong effects. THIS ALL FREAKED ME OUT!
SPD means the ligaments that normally keep your pelvic bone aligned during pregnancy become too relaxed and stretchy too soon before birth (as delivery nears, things are supposed to start loosening up). This, in turn, can make the pelvic joint — aka the symphysis pubis — unstable, causing some pretty strange sensations [or IMMENSE, FIERY PAIN!!!]. (source)
The next day I managed to take a long bath, meditate, and soak up some healing bath salts which I believe helped loosen me up a lot. I saw my physical trainer and he gave me exercises to do that will help me strengthen my pelvic area and overall recover from the trauma. If anyone is interested in a video of me doing these exercises, let me know & I’ll make one!! By the end of the night, I was able to get in and out of bed unassisted, but still needed help turning over in bed. I also successfully used crutches! This was great progress, to me.
I still feel pain when I walk or do anything, really, but I am definitely on the mends. I am not sure if I will return to what was normal a week ago or if I’ll even be able to do anything at the gym now. I am hopeful and have turned my attention towards eating a healthier diet and lots of meditation (things that I feel like I can control right now). I’m happy with my progress and sincerely feel for people who struggle throughout pregnancy in any way. With Levi, I had it so easy: the pregnancy, the labor, everything seemed so perfect and practically effortless. Now, I recognize how valuable (and fragile) my body is, so I am making an effort to become better, smarter, and more forgiving of myself.
CONCLUSION: I wouldn’t have made it through the weekend without my amazing support group: friends, family, and the church. Thanks for all of your thoughts and prayers on my behalf. We will make it through this!! If there’s one thing I’ve learned in life, it’s that things happen for a reason. The sooner you are able to understand the reason, the quicker you are able to heal and overcome personal weaknesses. I am grateful for this experience which continues to humble me (and those around who I am very dependent on right now).
I hope you all have a great week!!